Thereare no words to sum up how complete I feel with my daughter in my life. She has been a blessing from the start. I realized God’s plan for me is much bigger than any plan I have for myself. It took me 9 long months to come to that conclusion. So let me catch you up to speed on where I am in my life now, nearly 1 year after my first post.
There was an awakening in my soul after Mary Rose was born and since her birth I have yet to be the same. You hear all the time, that becoming a mother changes you. Until it happens you can’t possible understand the solidity of that statement. Change comes gradual, you don’t just wake up one day and say “Hey I am a mom, look how awesome I am”…it’s more of an “oh I am in 1st grade..now 2nd, now 3rd…all of sudden your in 8th going into highschool ” kinda change. God works mysteriously because babies are little timers that start new skills just as mothers start to master their own skills. To sum it all up in four words “It comes full circle”.
I think the saying “good things come in small packages” is about little babies. What an amazing little gift. Keep in mind I am a bit bias because she is our little girl, but she is so much stronger, smarter, bigger, and happier than I would have ever expected any baby to be. I will attribute that to the 70 hard lbs gained during the pregnancy, no reason to limit yourself..right!!?? Mary Rose has an amazing sense of herself. From the moment she was born she knew what she liked and was going to make sure everyone knew what that was. She kicked the oxygen tent open the entire time she was in the nursery. She was saying “If I could run to my mommy & daddy I would be outta here”. Now she just smiles and sticks out her tongue to tell us who she likes to communicate with. If I stuck out my tongue people would be offended or werided out. Her Paws have the grip of a grizzly bear. Once she gets a hold of you, your stuck She is also good at koala climbing your arm with her legs and feet! Oh the joys of a little baby go on and on!!
Daddy seems to be adjusting great to all the changes. I have never met another man with such patience and understanding. Since the day Mary Rose and Dad met at the hospital I can see a special light in her eye everytime she sees him. He was there for her the moment she entered this big scary world. His “girls” is the reason he is gets up in the morning to leave for work. He enjoys the small things, like laying on the couch while she jumps in her jumper, and plays in her bouncer. It’s priceless to see him feeding her a bottle. As for our relationship it can get tough at times because of the long hours at work, but that doesn’t mean we love each other any less. We are mindful of each of the sacarfices each of us has to make in order to give our family everything they need. I expect big things for our family, and they way things have turned out I can see that happening.
It isn’t easy being a “stay at home” mama, but now going back to school I really appreciate it. 2 weeks after having my angel I went back to school. I probably was still drugged up from the hospital. I didn’t realize how tired I actually was until school ended. I spent the whole summer trying to catch up on sleep, cloth diaper research, nursing every second of any free time, and waking up every few hours at night to sooth my infant. Now it is September and she is 5 months old…almost half a year! I enrolled in a unversity and just concluded my first full week, almost. Thanks to sleep training which I decided to start last friday, I have a cold that could take down a 800 lb elephant and so does daddy and baby. So here we are almost 1 week into a new routine and we are all sicker than elephants. I can’t even think straight between school, reality tv, and baby tears.
What else can I do to catch you up on stuff before I really start to blog around….well I mentioned cloth diapers. That was a project. Who knew cloth diapers could be so “expensive” and detailed. They are really only expensive once, but save so much money in the long run. And as crazy as this sounds cloth diapers are also a marketable item, that people actually buy used. Way to go Green eh! Mike & I have been inspired to be a greener home! Our next project is to buy wool dryer balls and see if they really cut the dryer time by 25%! Sounds Lame…but like I said I have changed;)
Oh we are engaged! Yes, he asked me in a beautiful forest in Michigan during the fourth of july weekend. I got to say, I love wearing my ring to school!! It’s such a different feeling to be walking around a campus basically married! I have nothing to worry about when I walk into my Physic’s class after 2 hours of sleep and it’s not because I drank to much the night before! By the way those days of drinking are a thing of the past, I can’t stand the feeling of being hung-over after 2 glasses of wine! EickkkkK!! Anyways you can get the same “hung over” feeling after only lightly sleeping for two hours each night for 5 months.
So how I project this semester to go; baby milestones, losing a few more lbs, straight A’s, some quality family time, good memories, and a full-time position for Mike @ a full-time department. Let’s see how the “sleep lady’s good night sleep tight” book treats me tonight!
